I drink

until I get drunk.

Then I try to drink some more.

I find myself

drowned in tequila at 1am.

It is me at my most honest.

It is me

looking for a home

and finding myself placeless.

Tonight I saw myself in the blue lights of cop cars

as I struggled to walk by.

I strayed outside my body

and asked the universe where I was meant to be.

I did not get an answer.

I stumbled into an unfamiliar bed-

alone

still drunk

still placeless.

Never quite at home in this world.

Never not at home in this world.

Somewhere in between.

Somewhere unknown.

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